hurt feelings

about a year and a half ago meagan said something that really kind of hurt my feelings.  she said that she always wanted to stay super close to all her siblings--not like i was with my sisters.  i was surprised and asked her what she meant by that?  we were close!  she said, yah, like when was the last time you talked to paula or joan and you only talk to jack more often because she calls to check on you.  ouch!!!  it was true.  i had made a great effort over the years to go back to utah for family events, but had not taken time to just call and stay in contact with my extraordinarily gifted, beautiful, and wonderful sisters.  the little kids, meaning paula and joan can't even remember me living at home. they were such a big part of my life and jack i was so mean to and now there is never any thing that goes on in my life or my children's lives that she doesn't keep track of. how sad is that?

meagan had been bugging me to get on the blog that brooke had set up for the family. she and cory would tell me things that one of the cousins had written. it was so funny to hear and would remind me of what it was like when i was your ages raising our kids. the best thing i can tell you--is this too will pass.  and it does all too quickly and people you love you are surprised how long it has been between phone calls. . .

given that challenge i thought the best way i could start building that relationship again was to get on the blog. brind was wise enough to know that the computer would have to be in the kitchen to get me to use it and so he set his computer up in here for me and cory has been my own personal computer tech ever since.

it has warmed my heart to see the love and support you are for each other.  i know it takes time and effort to communicate but the one thing you take with you is the relationships you build here on earth. there has to be a way to be able to post on your own sights and on the family blog also without doubling the effort needed.  your own family histories are so important and there are people that you want to communicate with outside the beecher family. i know it is hard to write in my journal, write a letter and blog (way too much time sitting still for me--i hate to write) but it has been so worth it. i realize it when i see janie on the blog,(you are right darla she really is an amazing young woman), everyone at weddings, the fondue parties,  rob's funeral, the stories told, the testimonies born--you are communicating, strengthening and supporting one another now and it is awesome.  what an extended family history this is!!!!

love you all Aunt Le Anne