happy birthday my little boo bear

you may be older,but things have not changed much, you still are trying to get out of cleaning up the kitchen by pretending you have a sick stomach and you still only read books with pictures. you made that last comment on the end of my blog to pretend you read it so i would feel good.

well 9 1/2 months and 25 years ago i distinctly remember telling ellery that if he wanted any more children now was the time because if i ever got you all out of diapers that would be it! 2 weeks later i was pregnant with our little elly.

we moved to denver, the thanksgiving before you were born. i was so worried because now we were not around family who would be there to make a fuss over you. from the minute you were born there was a fuss. when we had to put you back in the hospital because of the jaundice people would stop and look at you under all those lights in your 1st and only string bikini (if this is not so don't tell me) they would comment on what a beautiful newborn you were. maybe that is when you got your first taste of how much fun you would have being on stage--which is where you really love to be--in the spotlight! i remember you and brind swing dancing in the front room. practicing over and over again the moves for this one dance. it was really complicated and at one point brind was putting you up and over his back. it was so fun to watch, but i was nervous because it didn't always work and what if it didn't for the performance at school. the choir was singing and you 2 were dancing. neither one of you were concerned. it went beautifully! I should have known. hence my oft repeated statement--i sing but i don't perform. you sing and perform and it is still so fun to watch!!!

truth is your cousins and aunts and uncles do an incredible job of making a fuss over you now!!! so you never really have missed out on anything, but then you always make people feel good about themselves so why not?

whenever i look at hazel, i see you--only with long blonde hair. i remember you chasing the seagulls on the beach at lake sammamish yelling, "i need you, i need you!" you have always been so dang funny. adam telling you and brind that the care bears turned into witches at night that would eat you. you will have to tell me again who slept by the wall to protect you from the care bear/witches till i could get them peeled off the wall (dang adam's hide--just you wait adam i will come up with something that will impact just you and not mindi) and who slept on the outside to protect you from whatever was going to get you from there. being a little kid is so scarey. you managed with all those big brothers to protect you and brind to boss around.

i wish i could be there to baby you my little boo bear, but since i can't i am so grateful that you have jason and his wonderful family to make sure you have a great birthday dinner and plenty of yummy birthday cake to throw up--wahoo!

i love you. i am so sorry that you don't feel well. luckily it won't last forever!!!

mom

jesse, little indie will be in our prayers especially (she is always in my prayers) that day. love you, the pictures of her little eye patches are so cute.

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